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    Illusions of life.

    Okay, I'm blogging more than I ever have in '09 lol. But maybe its cuz I have ounces of free time now. That gets me thinking even more which equates into more blog posts. Random thought, I think the people at blogspot were typing "blog post" really fast when choosing a domain name and ended up with the typo blogspot and stuck with it. Possible right? Try spamming and see lah, you'll get blogspot/blogpost. Or blogpsot haha - which somehow isn't underlined red, as in it's not registered as a spelling error.


    Another random note, I have no idea why my playlist is playing teen/emo/pop punk/me vs the world rock. Its on shuffle btw. I should update my playlist lol. The world is a very emo place. Or maybe it's just me. Once again, I'm doing a lot of observing from body language but I'm sure you guys do too. If you think you don't, you're doing it subconsciously. Basically, people that do not feel good about their selves show it. Hmm, how do I say it.

    Well fashion/dressing up is a confidence thing lah. Let's say you see a t-shirt you like, you tend to ask your friends for justification to whether they think your shirt is nice or not. If you like it then yeah, get it. If your friend doesn't then I'm sure you'd take a second look at it (probably a proper one). See the thing is, its a confidence thing, if you and your friend agree that its "nice", you're gonna think that it actually IS nice (which in reality is solely based on personal preference) and you're gonna get it anyway. See, you feel good about yourself when you think you look good.


    But then again, "looking good" is completely personal which is why there are diff styles - emo, preppy, lala and all that. They think they look good so it it they FEEL good and it shows. There you have it, dressing up is a confidence thing. You know, people that are not comfortable with their surroundings will show it la - slouching, leaning against an object, folding of arms, hands in pockets, legs placed closed together (an example stance would be when you sing your national anthem), loss of eye contact. Please, please, please avoid that list when going for presentations. Most people (and probably 90% of bosses) perceive this as having low self esteem, being an introvert and wtv else that's related la, i can't think of any. Not that I know but I'd rather employ a person that doesn't seem comfortable with him/herself right?

    Maybe that's why I'm attracted to confident girls haha. Okay, I'm not blowing my own horn but you seek what you want in the opposite sex. Kidding kidding. But for real, attraction doesn't mean partner lah. Attraction could be platonic, most of the time it is lah. The ones that seem confident could actually be masking themselves. Haha, this I was thinking of Hayley Williams from Paramore. Seriously, they are damn good live and most of the time playing live relies a lot on your frontman (and claims my friend, the drummer too haha). Think for a sec. I'm sure she has problems and all but still she brings a lot in live performances but still packs a punch as a frontman.


    Body language, speech, charisma, vocals - the whole package. She could be having probs or not, I'm not too sure but they're having band conflict lah, and w/o a doubt Paramore matters a lot to her and shakes her confidence. That got me thinking and following Hayley Williams on twitter haha. What am I trying to get at again, the post it way too long and I forgot my initial message. It was somewhere along the illusion of being and acting confident and how cute Hayley Williams is. Hmm okay, well I'm still gonna post this up. The thing is I bet you guys don't even interpret what I'm trying to say right? Haha, it's just "rather interesting reading material". It's up to you guys as to how it can affect you lah, I'm too lazy to interpret it myself. I give you the head and body you come up with the legs lah.

    Speaking of live performances, check this one out. Awesome! If you don't know it already, most bands can't play live AT ALL. Sorry to burst your bubble haha. *cough*jonas brothers*cough* well actually I don't know la, haha. I take that back, they're actually pretty good musicians. Follow me on twitter, haha!



    Moving to Atlantis, could've made it if you tried,
    ColiNgeow.

    The Panorama of Life.

    Okay, so my blog posts are mostly fueled by emotion. But I guess that comes from stoning a lot but then again, a lot of "alone time" gets you thinking and if you're out, observing too. Honestly, I don't mind having alone time to shop to eat to study or wtv. Well basically you do everything YOU want to do right?

    Last month, as I walked into uni, I looked down and stared at my shoes. They were dirty and wet since it rained the night before. And you know, it's those things where you start pondering about the stain on your shoe and how you got it. Pretty much taking about 10 seconds of your time before you get bored. Well yeah, I still don't know how I got that stain lol.


    Routinely, I walked towards the cafeteria ordering my daily dose of neslo ais to kick start my day. I stopped by the auntie manning the shop sells nugget/wedges to get some nuggets as well. Bout halfway to the library, or slightly less I would think, I turned around and decided to chill for a bit more in the cafeteria. I pulled seat and turned my iPod on. Enjoying my newly bought meal, I was surprised at the number of people that came to uni early that day. It was more than the average and it gave me more to observe. Okay, stalker much? haha!

    There was this one girl who was well dressed. Assuming that she had cared about her outlook and physical appearance, she was a person that didn't have much self esteem. Maybe it was the exam stress, maybe a fight with her significant other. Well, who knows? She was slouching slightly forward, hands in pockets looking down at the floor - with a beautiful head of hair. I was wondering to myself, what would a good-looking girl like her feel so down on life? Beats me.


    I'm sure it's something big cuz a petty matter wouldn't budge a normal human being. So that got me wondering. I mean, the thing is *touch wood*, a family member of hers could have been admitted into the hospital, a family pet passed away or wtv. I can't remember what I was thinking of. Again, the assumption is that something impacted her really hard cuz I don't think she would be bothered by something little.

    By the time I thought of this, she walked passed me and went to get a drink and turned to look at me. And of course, she would assume i was checking her out haha. I sorta was but not in the "haha, nice ass!" kinda way. Naturally, I turned away and that ended the observation process lol. Well, for the next minute or so I thought about what could have happened to that poor girl.

    Okay, random pic of beer. Sue me!

    It's interesting how something could impact her so hard on the inside with no one on the outside not being affected by it one bit. It's hard to explain, it's sorta like her emotions are totally insulated from the environment. Hmm, interesting really.

    Or she could just be tired and all of this could be just part of my imagination. But it's interesting nonetheless.

    Beautiful girl looking her best, takes off her towel, puts on a dress,
    ColiNgeow.

    Hi, It's Me Again.

    Okay, before i get started with reading my journals and study for my pop-quiz (which i assume is tmr), i'd like to blog first. haha.

    Do you know what I enjoy? I enjoy sleeping after working. Actually, i enjoy sleeping whenever. It's the most peaceful/least stressful thing you can do. The best thing is, you're not wasting any energy when doing it. You get to wake up later feeling a whole lot better with a fresh mind.



    DO you know what I hate? The period of sleep right in between the moment you fall asleep and when wake up. I assume thats the deepest state of sleep you'd fall into lah, right? Well actually, I hate the periods when you start dreaming and when you get into the sweetest dream ever (and most of the time, mine's damn good haha), you wake up and ponder. Oh, feck, that wasn't real? And you'll start wondering is there are hidden meanings to the dream you just had. I've had pretty wacky questions ranging from "Is that a projection of my future?" to "Wait, but I don't even like her, or do I?". Yeah, pretty messed up.

    Second would be when you wake up when NOT getting enough sleep. Or waking up an hour before the alarm actually goes off. Well the first is kinda retarded la, everyone gets that on a weekly basis. The 2nd one is sorta like "okay, time to get ready". *looks at alarm clock*. wth, its only 7? (assuming you had to wake up at 8) *reconfirms by checking time on phone*. ahh, shit it's only 7. at this point you would already be alert enough to get ready but you go back to sleep anyway cuz you've got an hour extra to spare right? next thing you know, your alarm "didnt ring" and it's 930. haha. its a phenomenon really, alarm clocks just don't go off nowadays.


    another would be getting into a conversation or a phone call while you're sleeping. you say "yes'' to pretty much everything to make the other person shut the hell up. 2nd would be saying what you would normally wouldnt say in a given situation. okay, basically, you say "f*ck off" to your parents with a sidedish of "ciba*" haha, yeah.. thats the shit right there. lol

    well i don't know why i wrote this post. oh wait i do, lol. haha, had a super weird dream just now lah =/
    hey you guys remember her? super awesome!



    From the words of a great lyricist,
    "Tell me how they got that pretty little face on that pretty little frame",
    ColiNgeow.

    Photoreceptors.

    Okay so i can't sleep. I tried but I can't. Maybe its cuz I've still got 1 lab report and 1 worksheet due next tuesday which i cant stop thinking about. One on E. coli and one on respiration. Screw it.

    Here's a question. Would you rather be blind or deaf? I thought about it and I think I'd rather be deaf. I mean, I'd rather be able-bodied lah but I'm saying if i had to choose, i'd be deaf. Contrary to popular belief, blind people do not see BLACK and deaf people do not hear NOTHING. lol. Most of the deaf and blind people are partially(but of course, some cases are more severe) deaf or blind. All in all, id still be blind.


    my reasons (arranged in importance) being,
    1) I wouldnt get to see my loved ones grow. lol. as cheesy as it sounds, its true. i wouldnt get to see my friends grow into adults, i wouldnt be able to see my parents grow old , i wouldnt be able to see myself get ripped and hot (haha)
    well, people say love is a language the blind can see but i guess youve to be blind to actually know

    2)I think this would be reason #2 and it was a close fight haha. i wouldnt be able to check girls out. hey cmon please lah. sight is the sense then is most relied on okay!? thats why we have the bugattis, victoria's secret models, fashion trends and me. basically all that is nice on the eyes. haha

    3)it would be hard for me to enjoy all that is beautiful in the world. okay screw you for hantam-ing me. guys have their sensitive side as well. so sue me! im talking about my girlfriend/ my wife. i mean, sexual attraction has to be a done deal before getting into a relationship and im not being shallow lol. thats a story for a different day. regarding natural selection and all

    4) I wouldnt be able to watch the champions league and the epl, assuming that man utd will be constant contenders for both the trophies lol. alsoo, i wouldnt be able to play futsal anymore. and that would suck.


    4) It would be hard for me to get a proper education without being able to read notes/textbooks. like duh, i mean, i bet you sleep in lecture and read the lecture material anyway so why even listen in lecture lol

    6) i wouldnt be able to go shopping and enjoy it,watch tv and use the computer. all tied at #6. not THAT important i guess.

    I guess if i was deaf i wouldnt be able to enjoy music but i guess thats the lesser beauty right? or wrong? the basis of my choice is solely our reliance on the sense. i dont think we can live w/o sight. try moving around with your eyes closed for 5mins. itll be hard lol. thats how dependent we are on sight.

    Peace!
    ColiNgeow.